10-12 Happy Birthday AngelsMy last day in Lancaster was DISGUSTING. I started to ask myself what I was doing here. Why did I come here? All of a sudden I wanted to be surrounded by my Ottawa family. People who care, and wonder why I'm quiet even when i'm just pausing to take a breath. Solitude may be peaceful and calming, but it sure as heck is LONELY. The day began...
I missed my 9am alarm and woke up at 11am; frantic and panicky because I had an exam at 2 and two papers two hand. After working on my papers 3 weeks earlier, I submitted them 15minutes late and I lose 10% off each of them. For the first time in years, my eyes were brimming, I was on the verge of tears. Upset and angry at myself for missing my alarm, for not showering faster, for not eating quicker, for walking instead of running for not planning the night before. Then I remembered it was December 10th and I closed my eyes, put my hands together, bowed my head and pray to God through my Angel. My personal Angel, Hadiza, my baby, and I congratulated her on her 4th Angel birthday because I know that's what her job is now.
In minutes I felt better. NO time didn't rewind for me to submit my papers early and I still had an exam in an hour. But my heart was warmed up and my image in the mirror brightened and my lips drew out into a smile.
My renewal was internal.
Do you believe in Angels? I do. And I know my baby is an Angel and she made me happy today. Sometimes I dedicate steps in my life to her, achievements., good grades. I remember her all the time and I smile because she was the cutest little baby ever. I love you Hadiza and keep watching over us our other 59 Angels.
"To live in the hearts of those you love, is not to die"
Death is pain, it takes away; but Hope gives back...Life - Ijeoma Madueke