Dear Hadiza,
It's been seven years since the worst day of my life. Seven years since they took you from me. I'm not doing bad, applying to school for my Master's. Yes I still bite my nails but I put on some acrylic nails to stop myself. It helps for a little bit. Then I'm snacking on it like I used to.lol. Terrible, I know. You're not here to stop me. And Oh! I still always forget everything. I date guys with perfect memory though, since you're not here to remind me to do the little things, they do.
I saw your mum a few weeks ago. I don't go over as often as I can even though the house is pretty close, she always travels. But she cooked for ifie and I, we gisted so much. Your pictures still hang everywhere in the house and when I step in, I feel like you're there.
There are tears in my eyes as I write this letter because no one can ever take your place. I wish you were here for me to scold you about boys and to give you advise. I wish you were here for me to say No to a really short skirt. I imagine how grown up you'd be now with bigger breasts and your cute bottom. Hmmm....i wonder if you'd have finally grown taller than me because I'm pretty sure I shrunk! Of course we still look after your brothers. We are their baby sisters and we will always be around. We can NEVER take your place, no one can EVER take your place.
In a few years I will start the Hadiza Foundation; look out for it. You and I are going to do so much good work together. I will always have you in the largest part of my heart. I wish I was into tattoos, I'll tattoo your name on my wrist. A constant reminder to be good, selfless and kind.
Urgh! Words cannot express how I feel, i'm angry again, then upset then just blah!
I love you my darling, then, now and forever. I will keep your spot on my bridal train because I know your spirit is with me. Continue to rest in the Lord, till we meet to part no more.
Yours,
IJ
The wounds may heal, but the scars never fade
Rest in peace the fallen 60 angels....we talk about you all the time. You impacted us so young. You will forever be a part of our history.
5 comments:
I am terribly sorry for your lost. May God continue to lead you down this path of healing. May this letter you have written give you peace...keep fighting, keep pushing, keep believing. Hadiza will be sooo proud.
I miss her too. She was in Loyola house with you but she used to come to my room and ask me the most ridiculous questions ever and it was all incredibly cute.
She was a good kid. I'm so sad she's gone.
I am so sorry about your loss. I hate saying those words especially when someone is gone but that is all I can say. I lost my friend chisom awaji and my cousin to that crash. I remember in bereton, chisom and i shared our lunch alot. She always had boiled plantain and pepper stew to entise me :), we wrote our common enterance together and we were seat mates as well. Very pretty girl with long hair..(She had her first perm in primary 5) lol. May their souls continously rest in peace
Such a touching letter, may her soul rest in peace.
Ore_Oluwa::: Thank you for the kind words
Sugabelly :::: She was. lol. ALways smiling
Chidinma ::: SOrry about your own loss too darling. Lol Chisom as such a joker. Very close to my sister ifie. She like her own Hadiza
Myne Whitman ::: Amen
~x~
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