My fear with my career ambition is whether or not it will curb my ability to express my creativity in other aspects of my life. Since 2011, being out of school, I didn't think too much about the determined Ijay. But now I'm back, there's so much I want to do professionally and thoughts about other things lie in the back burner.
I know I'm not the only person struggling to reconcile the different 'whats' that I love to do. That's why we have people with 9 to 5 jobs doing otherwise. And let's be honest, a 9 to 5 job in Nigeria will hardly give the lifestyle you want. Well the lifestyle I want. So we're getting creative, opening fashion houses, blogging, illustrating, cupcakery, event planing. Making a living from different things. That's why it annoys me each time I read the typical Nigerian commenters' phrase "Everybody now wants to be ...." So what if everyone wants to try their hand at something others are already working on. Maybe, just maybe they can do better.
That's why I'm so impressed by the Youth Awards I see featured on Bella Naija and the likes, where bloggers and TV and Radio personalities speak.
I feel like we are a part of a generation so liberated and boundless that we want to fly not even run with all our amazing ideas. Someone told me that once when your attention is divided; no one of your ventures has your 100% commitment. Mathematically, it makes sense. But maybe just maybe we are capable of multi-tasking to the point that we can do all things we want to. And maybe 100% is not what each of them need to succeed better than others in our field. Maybe my 60% is equivalent to someone else's 100%.
Maybe we need to say to ourselves, "I can, but SHOULD I?"
Maybe it's wishful thinking.
Maybe I'll only be one thing.
Maybe our generation will change the face of the labor force.
Maybe we'll do too much at a time and our industries will be saturated with sub-standard companies.
Maybe, just Maybe we are riding our very own Creative Winds to the point of Our Destruction